Planning+for+insiders,+outsiders

set the scene.

2.45am

just left a party..... wasnt happy, not included, down on himself he had been trying to fit in, so was...
 * smoking
 * had been drinking alcohol
 * drunk
 * drowning his sorrows
 * had escalated into drugs
 * was "high"

walking down a road,
 * thinking to himself
 * his thoughts
 * his troubles
 * others around him
 * what others would be doing
 * kicking himself
 * low self-esteem
 * he is an outsider and wonders why
 * wants to be an insider
 * his surroundings

3.30am sits down in an ally way thinks about himself he's not like his friends wonders why he even wants to be like his friends
 * he thinks to himself that while he is sitting there, his 'friends' are having fun and probabley by now have gone home with a girl
 * he doesnt like being a virgin
 * all his friends arnt
 * he cares for his education
 * he doesnt usually do drugs or alcohol or even smokes
 * cares about his family spends time with them
 * holds down a job
 * who just party all the time
 * skip school
 * do drugs
 * get drunk
 * have sex
 * free load off their parents
 * considered cool
 * they seem like their having fun
 * no worries
 * freedom
 * no comitments
 * no responsiblities
 * meet girls

falls asleep in the ally way next morning wakes up next morning late gets up, walks home, hung over mum askes were he was tells her not to worry goes up to his room plays video games/ sleeps

friends invite him to another party that night, he declides, not feeling well friends do it all over again

one friend comes over he confesses about his outsider feelings he tells his friend he wants to do what they do his friend tells that he doesnt he has a good life while they dont all they can do is party they cant find a job, educated
 * they run from their worries while he faces them